My New Year's Wish...

I don't want to say 'Resolution', but rather 'wish' and maybe even 'hope'...

This February my Baby Boy should be turning 4 years old.

I just realized today that this coming school year in September, he should be starting Kindergarten...

It seems that every time I feel like I have taken a step forward in managing my immeasurable loss, something happens and I fall apart all over again.

My New Year's Wish is to try to live normally with this intense heartbreak and feel like a normal person - not someone living in a nightmare nobody else wants to be in.
Or maybe it is just that I 'hope' to.

But aren't they the same thing?
I find myself wishing and wishing...then hoping...but does that really change anything?

Let's 'hope' it does...